Each evening, we have a devotion and talk about our day, this is one of my favorite times of the day, no matter how difficult or uplifting the day has been.
Each evening, Butch asks the group "Where did you see Jesus today?" I would describe some of the things that are shared during the time, but that is not the point of this entry.
As I lay in bed in the early morning, wide awake because the local rooster likes to announce his presence with authority around 4:00, I was listening to my iPod. What I began to notice is that every song that I was listening to brought forth some memory from this trip in Haiti, and I began wondering if this feeling will last when I am reacclimated to my normal life in North Carolina.
Here are a few examples:
Cumbersome by Seven Mary Three
"All the stones that are thrown are building up a wall"
----- reminded me of our effort to help move the pile of stones into the deep hole. The stones were not quite thrown, we were told by a few members of the crew that the stone brigade would not involve throwing the stones.
Shatter Me by Lindsay Sterling with Lzzy Hale
"Somebody shine a light." --- reminded me of Dana getting this trip together
"I'm frozen by the fear in me" --- the fear of deciding to go on a trip like this
"Somebody make me feel alive and shatter me" --- the feeling that I have had since being completely broken on Saturday, and how I feel now.
Broken by Seether with Amy Lee
"I wanted you to know, that I love the way you laugh" --- pick any one of the kids from the Ryan Epps home.
"I want to hold you high and steal your pain away"
"I keep your photograph"
"And I know it serves me well"
"I want to hold you high and steal your pain because I am broken"
We have been warned that the process of returning to our "normal" lives can be difficult. Feeling guilty about how fortunate we are, or even thinking that we have not done enough. That will be interesting, but I am wondering where I will see Haiti in my daily activities.